Don't get me wrong - I like to charcoal drawing I did of my daughter. It's just that when I was exploring colours with the oil pastel landscapes I felt like I was making progress, that I was learning something. The charcoal drawings were just putting into practice skills and knowledge I already have.
So what was I learning while doing the landscapes? Well, I was making decisions about composition, and how to use the colour to create a sense of distance and mood.
When I look at Lucian Freud's figures, I feel like he's really getting to grips with his subject. I'm happier with my earlier loose sketches of the children.
What subjects do I paint, and what is it about them that I want to convey? And how do I go about conveying it? How do I manage not to over-think and get stressed about my art. i want to keep the newly found joy I have currently in creating, and not to be afraid of the final product before I even begin.